I know I've had several people ask me for an update on the job situation. I have hesitated on writing an update for the sake of trying not to sound like I'm complaining or just not wanting people to feel sorry for us. But you know what, that is what this blog is for. I need a place to be able to write what I am feeling and a place so that people (most of whom I've never met!!) who feel the need to pray for us can do so because they know what is going on. I am just so thankful to those of you who actually still tell me that you are thinking of us and praying for us. It means so much, honestly. So thank you to all of you!!
I really don't even know where to begin. Words do not come easily to me and so this will probably take a while to write and there will be a whole lot of backspacing and rewriting!
To start, I do not blame God for anything and I still have so much faith that things are going to work out the way He wants them to, but I have been in a rut the past two months. When we are having to spend way more money on bills alone (not including anything extra) than what is coming in it gets really, really, really hard to keep that faith. Thank the LORD we have a savings account or else things would have been taken away by now. But as we all know, when you take money out, you have to be able to put it back in, for it to save. So since we have had to do that, there is not much left, and now is when I really start to get edgy. And now I have probably said way too much but it is the cold hard truth to how the job situation is going right now. December and January have been extremely stressful and hard on the nerves.
Heath has some jobs lined up, just small little jobs that aren't going to make huge dents in anything. See, I don't like saying "small little jobs" because those jobs are at least something that is making us money. He was referred to a builder that is looking to build a relationship with a new electrician. Heath talked to the builder and everything went great and he told him to go get the blue prints for this custom house and give him a bid. Heath has his bid ready to go and has been trying to get ahold of this builder since Monday....still haven't heard back from him. We don't know if it's a lost cause or what. That has been very discouraging to both of us. That was going to be so awesome to get in good with a builder because that's how you get your name out there and get a company going.
We are just so torn because we don't know what direction God is wanting us to go. I say this because the person that referred Heath to this builder is another electric company. Heath subcontracted for him last month on a house and ever since then has been trying to get Heath to come work for him. Every time they talk on the phone (which is quite often) or if they see each other, he is always saying something like,"man Heath I really would love to have you at our company. You are someone I have been wanting for this company. Etc, etc." The only hang up is Heath really wants to make his company work. He doesn't like working for someone else now that he's had the freedom to work for himself. We thought that this is where God wanted us to be. So why is this coming up in our path?? Whose to say that once he starts at that company and gets comfortable there, that he won't turn around and be laid off again? It's happened twice now and I think one more time might just break the straw.
So here we are. What to do? We have spent the past few days driving around putting up fliers in various places around NWA. We got several calls that ended up turing into jobs from the previous fliers in November, so we figured we better go that route again. Most of our jobs though are from referrals. So right now we are just praying, praying, praying that the Lord will show us what path to take because right now we are so lost. It feels like we've been lost since September when the lay off happened. I can't believe how much I took, getting a regular paycheck, for granted each month.
If you could remember to say a little prayer for our family and our situation we would appreciate it. I know that money isn't everything and we aren't supposed to covet it, but you
have to have it to survive. Say a little extra prayer for me because I am the one who takes this the worst. Somehow Heath was blessed with the "non-stressed out" gene and I,for sure, do not have that gene anywhere near my DNA!
Well thank you for reading and I will leave you with this picture of my hubby making up a bid from his first set of blueprints from his first (potential) builder! Notice his shirt...
4.) Harding University ~ the college where I met the love of my life!
6.) Helping others ~ I was going to be a nurse most of all because I love to help people. I think Heath and I are a good match in this department because we like to help people where ever and whenever we can.
7.) Hard-knock life ~ I had a rough childhood and if it weren't for that I don't think I would be the person I am today. So that is something that I am growing to learn about myself!
8.) Home ~ at the risk of sounding too cliche...it's where the heart is!
10.) Hidden camera shows~ As much as I hate to admit it and as much as I don't really like Howie Mandel, I love his new show "Howie Do It?"!! I'm all about pranks!
Sterling must have been worn out from watching me...BEAT THE GAME!!! Wooo hooo!!! LOL! It's the simple things! :) (or actually not so simple)
